Why do children usually bear the brunt of their parents' failed promises and responsibilities?
We cannot dispute that parents at times make mistakes. However, it is their duty to fulfill their responsibilities in order to support and provide their children's necessities.
These are the words that's running over and over again with this little brainy of mine.
Growing up without the support system of the parents who should have the obligations to raise me as their child, makes me wonder how I grew up being discipline and still have the ability to treat other people with respect and being professional. Other might say,"because it is your own will", or "maybe because you grew up with your relatives."
Since I was a child, despite of dreaming to become a police woman, a CEO in a company, or a lawyer, I dreamt of having a complete family. Going home to a house you can call "HOME". Home, where you can say, "Ma, Pa, I'm home!" while wearing a smile with a mix of exhaustion from school works. Yet, I failed to grew up from the dream I wanted to have. Receiving the love I wanted, and care from the people I've been expecting.
It's hard to grew up not having the support of your family. May it wether the financial support, parenthood,and emotional report, makes me wonder if I do really deserve to be here on earth.
It's hard to pretend that everything's okay. Yet, I don't have the courage to tell everyone behind those smiles how hard it is to grew up without them.
I don't know who to blame. I dream of having someone who can support, come to any ocation related to school. Even putting a medal showing support to the achievement that I had. No one was there. And now that I am about to graduate having a degree on college level, I am not expecting from them. It's hard to balance being a working student and a student itself. Knowing that it should be the obligation of parents to provide. Not to generalize everything. But for once, I wanted to experience having someone who seek for a job just to give us the allowance. Someone who can give anything because we have projects to pay. Instead, I and my brother are the one who provides for our parents need.
Sounds unbelievable right? But it happens. Maybe some of you might have wonder if it's true. And yes, I and my brother are the living testament of it.
I am tired. I am weak. And I need someone's support. Someone's presence. Someone who can cheer me up when everything's not fine. Someone who I can run to. Yet, here I am. An independent woman who looks like I don't need someone in my life.
If you are a parent, please put in mind that there is someone who will suffer if you don't do your part. And that is one thing I am quite hesitant in the near future. To have family. Because I don't see myse
lf becoming a responsible parent for my children. I don't want to fail as a parent someday.