Alcohol won't save you.. You can't keep running away from your problems.. I understand sometimes we need an escape.. Some just want to be delusional..
I know it heavy to bear.. I know you're almost at the verge of giving up.. But honestly, alcohol isn't a savior..
Too much of it is quite harmful to the body.. And.. After a while, you're back to reality..
Why don't you change your perspective to life.. Why don't you remind yourself that no condition is permanent.. You might be very close to your breakthrough..
Alcohol is a fleeting friend.. The solace we can find in a bottle doesn't last long.. The reality of life will show hit after a while.. Back to what we were running from.
So face the pain or frustration... Stop living in denial.. Accept it and figure out how to deal with it.
One more bottle? Many more sorrow.. Regret and agony... Life is for the brave.