When you look at the sea for a long time, you start dreaming. You have time to think about many things. Most of all I dream about my loved ones, my family and my girlfriend. After I get back from the ship, I make plans of where I want to go with them, where I want to visit. I think this is the biggest effect of watching the seemingly endless sea for a long time. It gives you the capacity to plan and dream endlessly. Especially when the work is done and there is time left, it is very nice to have a hot tea and watch the sea.
Delightful...
When I first started working on the ship, I dreamed of sending my family on a vacation to thank them. I had planned it. I wanted to send them on a nice tour to Norway with the money I had saved. My mother had always wanted to go to Norway. My mother has been saying that for years. But it was never meant to be and she couldn't go. I had planned it when I first started working. When I returned home, I was going to get them passports and visas. Then I was going to talk to a tour company and buy a vacation. But that year, my family had already booked a vacation. So I couldn't do it. It was left for another time. Then other expenses intervened... It was like the train has ran away.
In the following years, I had made plans to start my own business and quit working on the ship. I had done so much business research, I looked at so many things. I even thought about animal husbandry. I even did a very deep research for silkworm breeding. And in the same year I was also interested in caravans. Actually, I'm still interested in camping caravans. But in the past, I had a plan to turn it into a business. I was going to buy a caravan with my savings and start. But it didn't work out. When I came back home, there were other expenses. I t's like the train has already departed...
Later on, I must have decided not to make long plans, so I just focused on my own vacation. Especially after I left the ship, I found myself making plans about what to do and where to go. I was dreaming of summer vacations, sea, sand, sun. Yes, I was actually able to do that. Once I went camping with my friends and we traveled around. Tent camping was fun. We had a very fun summer vacation that year.
Afterwards, I went on vacation with my family another year. Of course, it was not possible to tent camp with them, we rented a place and went. But it was still fun. This time I did not miss the train.
What I realized is that when I make plans now, I don't make plans for the very distant future. I now dream about the near future, like 1 year. Like 2 years at most. In fact, if you come and ask me right now, what is your plan for 2 years from now, I would just say to move up in my job. I have no other plan.
But if you ask me what is your plan 1 year ahead, then things change. Because in April I will get off the ship and go back home, and then the big day is waiting for me. I will get married. That's why I make a lot of plans and dream.
As the sun goes down I reflect on these plans, sometimes repeating them out loud. Hearing myself say them often helps me to see what I am missing. I have started to think only one stop ahead, maybe two, so that I don't miss the train. I don't think too much about where the road is going. Instead, I try to enjoy the journey.
I, now will take one step at a time. Live slowly, but fully.
Thank you for reading. Take care, see you soon.