Greetings and welcome to my blog. It’s been a while and I am glad to be here after a while and the topic at hand sparks so much interest as we talk about the ups and downs, lows and high moments of life.
One of the saying I like is the saying that life happens and we get over it. Yes, as we navigate the ups and downs of life, things happens to us every now and then. Sometimes they are good and soemtimes they are opposite. The good comes with feelings of goodness while the lows comes with regrets and sad feeling but each of these makes us stronger and better if we do not break on the positive.
One thing remarkable that happened to me this year was that the year started for me on a very good note. I was very enthusiastic about this year and I knew it was my year of goodness and Gods mercy. The fasting and prayers for the new year helped to make it more realistic for me and I was in high spirit and so expectant.
The peak of the early goodness came when I was selected as one of the winners for an annual competition I enrolled in. I won serious cash gift and my joy knew no bounds. I also got some side gigs and jobs that brought weekly cash to me and I was happy. But just when I was enjoying the high time, things started degenerating.
It first started with a disappointtment that January from another bigger gig I had applied for. I faced a rejection that same January amidst my celebration and just when I felt my breakthrough have started. I reapplied for that position on February again and was rejected. I applied on March again and April and faced another dose of rejection and that was when things spiraled out of control.
I had so much need for money and the channels I was expecting to raise this money from wasn’t working and I entered into some difficult moments of lack, anxiety and that was when my journey into what I call the most difficult moments of this year started. For three months, I was depressed. April, May and June was some terrible months for me.
I had not known so much depression in a very long while. I couldn’t eat well, I couldn’t sleep well, I lost weight and my body hurt. I was literally feeling sick due to depression. I felt literally that I was in a pit. It felt like a rut that I don’t know how to come out of. I couldn’t even pray.
Those periods, I would cry and cry. My closest friends noticed I was not okay. She asked what’s the matter but what I was going through was difficult to explain. No one understood. It was only one of my senior colleagues that I talked to that understood what I was going through and helped the much he could.
One thing I kept telling God during that period was that he should help me. I would pray and ask God to take me out of that pit cos I don’t know how to get out of it. After three months of crying and struggles. I came out of depression. The deliverance was so dramatic and I dont even wish my enemies that experience.
Things have improved a little bit over time. One of the things that I would advice someone who is going through a down moment would be to pray. No matter how weak or tired you are, talk to God. He hears. Then have friends around you who can encourage and support you in your down times. Don’t be alone.
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