Hello everyone 🤗 hope you'll are having an amazing day ,I can't say the same for mine it has been so hectic 😩 I need like five days off 😏,this weeks prompt got my attention ,one thing I would like to change about myself would be ;been a people's pleaser ,I put people's feelings and want ahead of mine I know it is a commendable trait and people are encouraged to be selfless but mine is overboard ,I go extra miles for people I care about and most times they don't reciprocate the same energy ,time and love I give them and for the longest I've tried to change that about myself but can't,when I even try to put myself first I feel guilty .
One experience that really got to me was one time a friend of mine didn't show up for me like I did for her I wasn't expecting a pay back for all the kindness I showed her but I thought we were friends and friends should be there for each other during difficult times. when she moved into the neighborhood I tried to make her comfortable and I showed her around ,I did that because I remembered when I moved into the area too, it was challenging for me to find my way around the area locating the local market and other places .I took her like a sister and whenever she needed my help with something I was always more the ready to offer a helping hand,when she lost her baby I traveled to visit her in the hospital I spent some days with her in the hospital ,I left my baby with my mom 😏 I thought to myself that she needed someone to be there with her during that difficult time .
she recovered and came home after a while I lost my dad 😞 I was so sad I cried so much and during these time my friend didn't call or pay me a visit her house was a stone th
row from mine,she was aware of what happened because I called her .I traveled to my hometown for my dads burial ,that was one of the most difficult times of my life and I needed someone to be there ,even when I came back she still didn't visit until she saw me at my place of worship that was when she started sympathizing with me.
it was just done on me that I need to change ,although am still struggling to change but I've made adjustments ,I no longer say yes to every request and if you don't ask me I won't try to help .sometimes if helping would make me uncomfortable in any way I won't help .
I feel bad about it sometimes but I'm too hurt am trying to protect myself from hurting again .