I can fail but not remain a failure.
Let's do a away with pride and it's sentiment, this is all about believing in yourself and doing what is right smartly and on time. When you tell yourself you might fail "it's okay " but I must not remain a failure because that isn't okay and yes you know your worth and you believe in it.
Why when asked, if I can fail? I can say "yes" even programmed robotics do fail or breakdown. So if machines that is built for hundred percent functionality do fail what makes humans so undisputed.
Every single person has that special period, a moment where there's a shift of something inside you, it might be in positive form or negative form, mist especially the negative energy creates more realisation than the positive ones. Saying negative I meant in form of crisis, depression or even utterances, because words are also powerful and can make a lot of impacts.
My special moment got me as a young boy, watching my parents wearing smiles they didn't genuinely feel or embrace, life was tough for them but we never knew we we're enjoying the end results as children. Do you blame us? The answer is NO. We weren't yet informed or realisation hasn't hit us. All these struggles was to make sure we the kids never felt the hardship of the world.l at a young age. I respected my dads for that till this day.
Growing up wasn't like the silver spoon privileges examples, mine was the opposite of that. We had nothing so we strive to get what we need not just what we want. There's a big difference in this statement, to I and my siblings we didn't lack anything because of mentality then anything that was bigger than our capacity is considered not in our jurisdiction or possession. With this ideology with us, we didn't matter on trending things in the public. Contention was key.
If it's pertaining education that's when my parent will make sure we are standing firm like other children because indeed that is what we NEED not what we just want. Affordable food and cloths was what we needed and nit just what we want.
They always go all out to provide us whatever was neccesary so our up bringing wasn't tampered with contagious mindset.
The worst and painful part was a time when I would notice my mum after serving us dinner, she will sit at the corner doing something else acting all up pretending to have already eaten, meanwhile it wasn't enough for my both my parent but we the children must eat.
To the extra shift my dad will have to do just for extra funds to foot some important or urgent Bill. This was when I told myself, through the process of been successful it is alright to fail and readjust but to remain a failure must not happen. It was these events of unpleasant sacrifice that made a shift of mindset, a boost of courage and a hardworking individual all was birthed in me till today.
That suffering pattern? I must change it for good.
Thanks for reading through.