Hello Hiveans, this is me your Cintilla again! Today I'd like to share a something important to my heart: a point of view on my younger self. Because I know that growing up was not constantly easy, and like a lots of people, they have also a stories about both dreams and even a trauma. But, through it all, I've discovered that healing is so possible not impossible and always remember that our younger selves deserve love and care.
When I always look back at my younger self, I see a two sides of her. On one side, she was child that full of wonderful dreams. She always laughed at the small things, played with so much excitement, and also believed in the endless possibilities. Curious about life and still hoping that her future would be bright like a star in the night time. But on the other side, she were also carrying a silent pain that anyone or anybody didn’t notice. She faced struggles that made her feel scared, alone, and unworthy. There were times when she wanted to be strong but felt too weak. The truth is, my younger self was traumatised. She went through battles that no child should ever face. She carried wounds that no one could see it. At times, she thought she was not enough, and she questioned if things would ever get better. But even in those moments of fear, she still held on. She kept a small light of hope alive, even everything was felt so heavy.
“𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐚 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐰 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭.”
Now that I am older, I see her differently. She was not weak she was incredibly strong. She survived when giving up would have been easier. She stood tall even when she was shaking inside. Her bravery is the reason I am here today. As a psychology student, I have learned something important: it is okay to admit that I was traumatised. For a long time, I thought saying this would make me look weak. But now I understand that acknowledging trauma is a sign of courage. It means I am not running away from my past I am learning from it.
My younger self’s pain does not define of who I am really right now, but it has shaped me into someone more resilient and compassionate in life. That is why I chose the psychology. The struggles of my younger self gave me the passion to study the mind, emotions, and healing. They remind me that there are many people, just like me, who carry a silent battles. And maybe, through it's journey, I can help them feel less alone.
“𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐮𝐦𝐚 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡.”
If possible that I could meet my younger self right now, I would hug her lovely & tightly and say: “You didn't deserve the pain you went through girl, but you turned it into strength. Thank you so much for holding on when things were difficult. Thank you for keeping your dreams alive, even when you felt broken. Because of your courage, I can firmly stand tall today.”
To my Hive family, I want to leave you with this message: all of us have a younger self living inside of us. Maybe your younger self was happy, or maybe like mine. Either way, that child deserves your kindness. Look back at them with love, not shame. Because they were doing the best they could with the little they had. Healing is takes time, and it's not always a straight line or path. I know that some days you may feel so strong, and other days the pain may return. But if you step forward, no matter how small it is , that's the proof that you're growing. The fact that you are still here today it shows just how strong you truly are.
“𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐭, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐛𝐮𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐮𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐢𝐭.”
Thank you so much for taking the time to read my reflection, Hive family. Writing this reminded me that even our most painful chapters in life can become a powerful lessons. I hope that my words will inspire you to honor your own younger self with compassion and gratitude.
So, Hive friends, if you could speak to your younger self right now, what message of love and healing would you give it?