I came across a lot of posts while doomscrolling on Instagram today. The one that caught my attention was people talking about how their year has been. And even though I know everyone’s experience isn’t the same, it felt good to realize I’m not alone. This year?? If they offered me a million dollars to relive it, I wouldn’t take it 😂 (well… unless I could do things differently). I’m traumatized. It’s been a lot, and I still don’t understand how the year flew by. I had wins, yes, but the opposite almost overshadowed them.
I lost myself a few times this year. The ups and downs were so much. I couldn’t even bring myself to be excited about my birthday, which is so unlike me 😂 I was completely overwhelmed by a lot of things. Through it all, I think I am in a better place now and I am still grateful for a lot of things
I didn’t achieve even half of the goals I set, and that alone made me feel horrible for a while. I’ve beaten myself up and also encouraged myself—because one thing about me? I always pick myself back up. It inspires even me, every single time. And honestly, I still haven’t given up on those goals. They scare me, yes, but I believed in myself when I wrote them down, and I still do. I’ll push through and achieve what I can before the year ends.
I do pray next year is better and comes with so much Joy that will make me forget all the bad things that has happened this year. I hope I get to do the things I plan to do before the year runs out. I hope I make myself proud and I also hope I am able to stay kind to myself through it all.
I will still write about some of the things that happened this year, both the good and the bad. I think its important to reflect on them in order to make better decisions in coming months. I think my expectations were high for the year, but it is alright, I believe things will get a lot better real soon. Really wanted to let all that out, there might even be more later.
I wouldn't start hyping 2026 from now, I will actually let my actions just do the talking. I will do better, by God's grace, and my effort will show in a positive way. That’s what makes putting in effort beautiful: when you actually get results.
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