I am only human, and it's Okey to have feelings.
I am in one of my lowest moments right now. Losing a father again has left me deeply broken, and all I wanted during this period of mourning was a little sympathy. And yes, I got some- people reached out, and it meant a lot.
But then, someone I was once very close to (so I thought) chose not to say a single word. Not even the simplest “sorry for your loss.”
I expressed my disappointment, and someone around me said, “Don’t expect too much from people so you don’t get disappointed.”
Well, I understand that… but here’s my truth: I wouldn't expect this from a stranger, I wasn’t expecting money, I wasn’t even expecting much. I was only expecting a fellow human being to be human. someone I was close to, to show basic sympathy.
And no, I am not sorry for expecting that — because that is what makes us human.
I wouldn’t call it disappointment, it’s more of disgust. Because how can you be so cold when life demands compassion?
So yes, I will still expect people to act human, to feel something when others are hurting. And yes, I might get disappointed again. But I won’t numb my feelings just because others choose not to have any.
At the end of the day, I am only human.