SHINE SO BRIGHT!

Recently I have been having this constant feeling that I’m not doing things right. It keeps coming and I have come to realize that it is making my light burn low. It’s making me lose my taste as the salt that I should be. I always feel like running under a bushel to hide because I feel like I’m shining too bright in a dark place. And I’m kind of quick to forget that in the darkness, I’m meant to shine so bright to eliminate darkness. I gave into so many compromises and now my light has grown so dim I can barely see the next step ahead of me. As a little girl, I was fearless. I was brave and really smart. You know those children you meet for the first time and just can’t stop looking at them because of how smart they displayed? Yeah, that was me. But as I grew older, things became different. I became fearful, more conscious of hurting people than saying the truth and that was exactly how my light started burning low. As the light that I am, I was no longer confident in illuminating in the dark. Instead, I started getting more comfortable in the dark and because of that, I questioned my light. The moment I started questioning my light, everything changed. I see fault with everything I do. I questioned the things I have believed in even when I was sure that it was the truth. What if there were exceptions?. I’d usually say things like that to myself. Sometimes when people ask me why I believe in the things I believe in, I grow quiet not because I don’t know why but because I have been given a reason to doubt or a reason to have double thoughts about the things I have been learnt since I was a child.  But now that I think about it, the truth about how things work or should be like will never change just because of my unbelief. My dimmed light? I need to reignite my light - my flame. I need to start burning so bright because there are souls to save and rescue from darkness. I know how it feels when I’m searching for something in the dark and the light is turned on. Darkness seems like a comfortable place to be in but the more we stay in the dark, the harder it is for us to love the light. We even get to that point when we hate that we are beginning to radiate light and that shouldn’t be. We should let our light so shine that people will see us and find the right path through the light we give. Whether we accept it or not, until we let our lights shine, a lot of people will be lost in the dark. The people we love included. My light has been dimmed for too long. I actually thought I was shining too bright but little did I know I was already getting too comfortable in the dark. Right now, I know I can reignite my flame because I have you by my side. I make mistakes and when I don’t see those mistakes, I hope you see them and guide me. Thank you for reading through. ❤️ * _{Image used was taken by me and was designed using canva} *