THE BEST OF ME

The most inspirational person in my life is the best version of myself - you can say **the improved me**. I have noticed how I always feel sad every time I see someone doing something better and I’m doing the opposite when I know I can do that same thing. I was so good at comparing myself with others. Drawing my inspirations from others but it never gets me the result that I needed. And after thinking about this carefully, I realized that my major source of inspiration is the person I aspire to be. Whenever I’m doing something that goes out of the kind of life I want for myself, I’m reminded that I’m stepping out of line and I try to fall back in line. Whenever I want to give up on becoming a better version of myself because it keeps getting hard, I remember all the things I have envisioned for myself and I cry and tell myself to keep going because the end goal is something that will be good for me and also become a source of inspiration to other people. I want to be the inspiration to others.  The best of me that I have envisioned is someone who loves and loves genuinely. Without considering their class or statue or culture or race or anything. Whenever I see myself being selective of the people to show love to, I’m reminded of what my goal is and I try to adjust. The best version of myself is outspoken without fear of judgment or criticism. Whenever I’m struggling to speak up because I’m scared of what I might face, I’m reminded of the version of me that I’m aspiring to be and I speak up even in my fears and I’m getting better at being outspoken with ever courageous move I make. The best version of me is someone who is determined and persistent. I’m doing well at this at the moment but I’m still struggling a bit. So anytime I see that I’m beginning to struggle in being persistent and determined, when I think about what I aspire to be, I’m inspired to just keep going even when it is hard. The best version of me is one that brings glory to God. Sometimes when I do things that I know are not right, I remember my goal is to do things that brings glory to God and I retrace my steps. I want my life to be a life that people will see and glorify God and even want to know him better. And because of this, I’m always conscious of what I do. I’m always seeking for help and counsel when I’m going the other way.  I’m my own inspiration. I want to be the best of me that God has made so in the end his name will be glorified. I’m still far from the best of me but I’m just happy that I’m working towards it. I’m happy that I’m willing to learn, unlearn, relearn. I’m happy that I’m doing a lot of things even when it is hard. It’s only a matter of time and I’ll see better results and even if it doesn’t gets easier, at least I get stronger because it is only making me and not breaking me. Thank you for reading through. 💜 * _{Images used are mine} *