Hello everyone. How are you today? About me, I'm relaxing. Even though the house is messy, I just inhaled and exhaled. Our house is messy because we celebrated my baby's 3rd birthday yesterday. My sister-in-law and her family came in and stayed for three days. I don't wanna clean the house when it is crowded because I'd just waste my energy. Yesterday, we prepared my little girl's birthday and that preparation costs only 2,000 pesos. I just bought a purple cake at the mall that costs 389 pesos, a little bunny balloon that costs 25 pesos, 3 kilos of chicken and 1 kilo of Spaghetti with sauce. These days, it's really a rough life for me so I've learned to value small amount of money. I've learned to budget since I have a baby.
Even though I'm a single mother, I'm grateful to my family for always been my support system. I don't know where I am and my baby if it's not because of them and I thanks God to that. Sometimes, I overthink and I'm defeated by my emotions. Yet, my baby is my main reason why I encouraged myself to be brave. About her father, he didn't remember her birthday. When we called him, he didn't reply and blocked my number immediately. How cruel man he is to his baby. I can't control myself cursing him secretly just inside my mind out of anger and pain. My anger mind wishes that his new life with his new woman and children will never be happy because he deserves karma and his woman forever. His woman knew that when he courted her, he already had me and my baby. But she didn't wanna be out of his life and that man loves her too. I once chatted that woman, told her to stop ruining our little family, but she didn't listen. Anyway, why am I sharing this? I promised myself not to talk about him anymore. Well, this is the last one. Just for the record.
Our neighbour who have become our best friend cooked for us yesterday the Spaghetti Macarons. I bought a kilo of Spaghetti with sauce for 150 pesos. Then, I added the ingredients such as butter, cheese, ground beef, ketchup, onion, oil, hotdog, milk cream and condensed milk. I chose the cheapest brand of these ingredients to the point of budgeting a lot. When I arrived home, our neighbour cooked the Spaghetti immediately. She boiled the pasta with salt and oil. After a few minutes, she drained the pasta into the drainer. In a pan, she sautéed the ingredients of hot dog, ground meat in an onion and added the Spaghetti sauce. She immediately put the noodles into the sauté and mixed it. Later, she made a white topping. She sauteed butter, cheese, cream milk and condensed milk and topped it on Spaghetti. The taste was so good. It was a combination of Baked Mac Cheese and Spaghetti. That's her version.
We also made a Chicken Curry. The ingredients are ground pepper, garlic and onion, spring onion, red bell paper, curry powder, potatoes, carrots and coconut milk. It was the yummiest Chicken Curry I've ever tasted. The chicken was soft, the soup was creamy and flavorful. My neighbour is the best cook. She is a Bicolana. What they say about Bicolanos that are very good cook is true. I remember that she gave us her own version of Taro leaves with shrimp paste, chilli and coconut milk. She added pork and it tasted perfectly. She also cooked Bicol Express for us. I'm so proud of her. She's a good-hearted woman, very generous and pure. I'll be sad when she'll leave us soon. She will leave for good. She'll fly to Dubai so she can support her kid's daily needs. She also convinced me to fly with her so that I can provide my baby a better life. Right now, I'm thinking. Some people, especially those who have not babies cannot understand what's on my mind. I can leave my two years old child with my mother, I'm interested to fly with her, but I'm still thinking like I'm processing things right now to be ready.
We also made fried chicken because kids love it so much. It's a spicy fried chicken that tasted so good. There were a few burnt chicken because my sister-in-law who cooked was spending too much on her phone. There were so many food temptations yesterday that I really ate. I couldn't control myself even if I already promised not to eat fried and sweet foods because I'm scared if my cholesterol is high again. Really, my gallstone before gave me a trauma. These days, I'm trying to avoid those mentioned foods and coffee and be more physically active, but I couldn't do it. When my sister-in-law bought 2 liters of Cokes, I drank a full glass of it. I was really scary after but then, I went to bed immediately to sleep so that there's no anxiety anymore. My little girl was sleeping early too.
In the picture above is my little girl with her cousins, our neighbour, my little sister and her classmates. We had a simple celebration but very special in my heart. My baby enjoyed yesterday so much because she had a lot of playmates. I surprised her a new toy and she was very happy. She spent a lot of her toy and didn't share with the neighbour. She used to say that sharing is caring, but when she has a new toy, it takes one day before she allow other kids to play with it. I know it's in this stage where toddlers are selfish to share their toys. Some people couldn't understand kids and they judge them easily like defining what will they become when they grow up and it's very stressing as a parent to hear those words. But if I let those judgement come to my ears, I'll be draining all my positive energy so it's not my problem anymore. It's their problem. Now I feel the pressure of being a parent because anyone can judge you how good your are as a parent the way you raise your child. Anyway, that's my life update for now. Bye anyone!