Alcohol y Verdades
English Version
Alcohol and Truths
Until that day, the truth came out along with a few shots of tequila.
It was her twenty-first birthday and she had decided to celebrate it with her closest friends, including me.
Her most personal plan: to play Cupid. Aurora had this twisted idea of wanting to set me up with her best friend. She said her birthday was the perfect time and that she was going to adore him.
If only she knew how wrong she was.
My confusion had started since I kissed my neighbor while we were playing house, and continued in high school when the least social girl in my class stole a kiss from me in the computer lab. However, nothing like that ever happened again and I tried to convince myself that what I felt on those two occasions was just a figment of my imagination and my hormones.
But, now everything was different. We had been roommates for two and a half years, and I never even considered liking him. It wasn't until she started undressing in front of me that something in my body woke up. When she did that, I avoided looking directly at her, but I found it extremely difficult when she asked me how she looked. As if I didn't know how beautiful she was.
At night, I would catch myself looking at her in my sleep. It was the only time I could do it without her discovering me. Then I could etch in my mind her beautiful jet hair, her slightly pink lips and her fair skin, with polka dots adorning her back. All her beauty invited me to steal a kiss from her as she lay in the arms of Morpheus, but I held back because I knew it wasn't right.
She had decided that the best place to celebrate her birthday was at the busiest pub in town. All of our friends would be going and that meant Ryan, her best friend, would be there.
As we drove in her car, I couldn't stop thinking of an excuse for Aurora to give up on her idea of setting me up with her friend. I wasn't interested in meeting him at all, especially when the person I wanted to kiss was someone else.
"You don't know how excited I am for you to meet Ryan. You're going to love him." I doubted it.
"Sure," I didn't know what else to say.
She went on and on about what a lovely friend he was, that he was the best prospect for me and that I was going to adore him. I didn't know why she was so insistent on telling me about Ryan's qualities. Nothing I could say was going to change the fact that I was secretly in love with her.
We arrived at the pub and there they all were waiting for the star of the evening. The round of hugs and congratulations seemed to take forever, until it was time for Aurora and Ryan's reunion. They both squealed with excitement at the sight of each other and although I thought it was tender, for a moment I felt displaced.
Then, as if my thoughts were too obvious, Aurora turned to look at me and took my hand, which made my heart race stupidly.
-Ryan, this is Amalia. You don't know how much I was looking forward to them meeting. -He was handsome; he had crystal clear eyes like water, and his physique was quite proportionate. However, he didn't provoke me at all. I smiled out of pure politeness.
"Aurora told me a lot about you,” he said with a smile.
"It's nice to meet you". It seemed to me that the biggest lie of my life was coming out of my mouth.
"It's so nice to have my two favorite people in the same place!" I didn't know whether to laugh at the irony or be happy for her. "Let's go get some shots. You don't turn twenty-one every day."
Aurora dragged us into the booth where all our friends were and that's when the party started. There was laughter everywhere, two trays of nacho cheese, and lots of liquor. Aurora wouldn't leave Ryan's side, which I found annoying, but at the same time she kept looking at me which I thought was strange. I assumed she kept talking to him about me and how he and I could make a cute couple, yuck.
I tried not to focus on them, I had to pretend my feelings didn't exist. Tonight it was about Aurora and not me, so I did the normal thing, drink with my friends until I lost consciousness, or at least I hoped I did.
I saw that Aurora also started drinking without moderation and for a second I was worried. On the other hand, I couldn't say or do anything about it. Ryan suggested playing beer pong, and she jumped with excitement at the idea. I liked that game because I was good at it, but Aurora was terrible and I knew in less than a blink of an eye she would be totally drunk.
The group set up the table with the glasses and soon the game began. She was the protagonist of the night, so she decided to participate first. The rounds were in groups of two, and although I could see everyone enjoying themselves and laughing, inside, I felt like disappearing every time Ryan came up to me to ask me something random.
To get him off my back I clung like a tick to one of our friends. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Aurora giving me an annoyed look and I sighed. Her eyes already looked red from the alcohol, while I was trying to be moderate, which I was failing at because I was already feeling dizzy.
"I'm going to the bathroom for a moment,” I said to my friend.
"Do you want me to go with you?" She asked kindly.
"No, no need. Have fun."
I headed for the restrooms, and luckily, there was no line. I walked in and immediately smelled disinfectant. I looked in the mirror and my reflection told me I was a few shots away from losing my mind.
Through the mirror I saw an empty cubicle and went inside so I could release my bladder from so much alcohol. I was trying not to think about anything, when a knock on the door made me jump.
"Are you coming out?" It was her voice.
"Yes. Give me a moment." I adjusted my pants and went out.
Aurora was sitting on the sink counter and I went to wash my hands. I felt her gaze piercing me.
"Something wrong with you?"
"No."
"Ryan says you don't even give him the time of day."
"Wow. I'm sorry. I hope he's not having a bad time."
I wrung my hands and grabbed a piece of paper to dry them.
"Why are you being sarcastic? I thought you'd like him."
The dizziness was creeping up on me, and seeing her sitting there with that angry look on her face was making me more excited than I should be.
"I don't know why you thought that. Are you blind?" What was I saying?
"What do you mean?" Obviously, she was confused.
"Forget it."
I threw the paper ball into the basket and headed for the door. Suddenly, an electric current ran up my back. She grabbed my arm and I felt I couldn't take it anymore.
"Do you like someone else?"
"It's your birthday. You should focus on you, not me."
"You're my best friend." Those words felt like knives in my back.
"I know." I took a deep breath and turned around to face her. "Let's go back to the party."
"Tell me who you like."
"There's no point in talking about it anymore, Aurora."
"Why?"
"Because it's for the best."
"For whom?*"
"For the both of us."
And at that moment I don't know if she understood what I was trying to say, but her eyes looked at me with a depth I hadn't seen before. I didn't want to misunderstand. She was drunk, and I was being a terrible friend. The best thing I could do was run away.
But just when I wanted to, just when I had decided to cut the conversation short and slink away like a coward, Aurora's hand squeezed my arm tightly, drawing me to her and thereby stealing the kiss I had longed to steal from her for so many nights.