As a little child growing into something big was one of my biggest dreams as I have always thought of having some free lifestyle with no one to control it, since as a kid we were been directed and mandated to do so many things even when we know we don't want them all in the name of “GUIDANCE”.
I used to have an adult who lived in our house then as a tenant, he was a nice guy. I was a little child but I could still tell how beautiful life was with him being alone in his room. He cooks whatever he likes, wears whatever clothes he wishes to wear and does his things however and whenever he chooses to do them. I saw myself as being tied with a rope with no such freedom.
That lifestyle got me curious about wanting to become an adult in no time, so I could make my choice without interruption.
Life got into stages and I have finally arrived at the long awaited stage of life but I guess my perception about the whole adulthood stuff were all wrong as I tend to discover that nothing has changed.
The supposed freedom I longed for was there but it no longer interests me because I was even tied up as an adult not to do so many things. As the quest to become even better came into reality, I came to discover that all one needs in life is to ensure that he grows. As one will be left with the responsibility of caring for himself and the likes of people around.
The kind of food I eat is the same food I ate as a kid. Clothes happened to still be clothes, no new thing.
I have got freedom to go out and come back any day of my choice but that doesn't still count, my day to day activities in order to meet the day's end will not allow me carry out such a useless decision. The little I have got as an adult happened to be my resting time just so I could get refreshed and energised for the next activity.
The family still remain the same, friends of course are same sets of friends from my childhood and so the circles of life happens to be repeating it self just that this time it is coming at a more advanced age and in a different time of life, but trust me when I say nothing has really changed I mean NOTHING HAS CHANGED.
What I am hoping for now is the stage of being married. I am close to getting there. I want to see how far life will be by setting up a new family with a wife and children around. Maybe it will be a new story.
We longed for it but then here we are rewriting the same story in a new dispensation.