Desde que tengo memoria, siempre he sentido que hay algo más grande. Pero no se trata de una figura específica, ni de seguir una religión como tal. Es una energía, una fuerza que no puedo ver, pero que sé que está ahí… y está dentro de mí también.
Para mí, la fe no es creer en algo externo que viene a salvarme. Es más bien esa especie de luz interna, esa guía que saca lo mejor de mí y lo proyecta hacia fuera. Siento que cuando conecto con emociones como la bondad, la compasión, la gratitud o la esperanza, esas sensaciones se mezclan con algo más grande, como si formaran una corriente de energía que se expande y termina ayudándome, incluso sin darme cuenta.
Recuerdo que cuando era niña quisieron bautizarme a mí y a mi hermano, pero ninguno de los dos quería. No sentíamos que eso fuera para nosotros. Mi tía, que es muy religiosa, lo veía como algo extraño, casi como si no bautizarnos fuera un peligro. Incluso hubo un tiempo en que me llevó varias veces a la iglesia, específicamente a la iglesia católica. Yo sé que muchas personas encuentran consuelo en ese espacio, y respeto profundamente eso, pero a mí me pasaba lo contrario: me sentía incómoda. La energía del lugar no me agradaba y las figuras religiosas me asustaban mucho. Me daba miedo estar allí. Era niña y, aunque no entendía muchas cosas, tenía claro que ese no era mi camino.
Y eso no significa que no creyera en algo. En ese tiempo yo creía en Dios, pero lo hacía a mi manera. Con el tiempo, esa idea también fue cambiando. Hoy, no creo en un Dios como lo plantea ninguna religión. Pero sí creo en la energía. En esa fuerza que nace de las emociones buenas, de los pensamientos nobles, y que de algún modo se transforma en algo que nos acompaña.
A veces pienso que los humanos tenemos el poder de materializar tanto lo bueno como lo malo. Hay personas que dicen haber visto demonios, y yo creo que eso tiene que ver con toda la rabia, la envidia, el odio que a veces se acumula. Esa energía también puede tomar forma. Por eso creo que, si alimentamos la bondad, también podemos hacer que eso se manifieste de alguna manera.
En mi vida han pasado muchas cosas difíciles. No sé si podría contar una experiencia puntual, pero siento que si he sobrevivido a tanta oscuridad, ha sido gracias a esa fuerza, a esa manera de ver el mundo que me sostiene. Yo no lo llamo “fe” como lo hacen otros, pero tal vez lo sea.
Mi manera de conectar con lo invisible no es a través de rezos o rituales, sino a través de la conciencia. Es cuando siento algo que me conmueve, cuando veo una injusticia y pienso diferente a la mayoría, cuando no soy egoísta aun teniendo razones para serlo. Es como una inteligencia emocional y espiritual que me permite ver más allá, y que me hace sentir conectada con algo mayor, incluso si no sé explicarlo del todo.
A quienes sienten algo parecido, pero no encajan en ninguna religión, solo puedo decirles: crean en ustedes mismos. No piensen que hay una única forma de conectar con lo invisible. Como dijo Carl Jung: “Quien mira hacia afuera, sueña. Quien mira hacia adentro, despierta.” Nuestra espiritualidad puede nacer desde adentro y no necesita etiquetas.
Eso es lo que me sostiene. Y con eso me basta. Aunque admito que tampoco me cierro a la posibilidad de que exista algo más, algo que no comprendemos del todo… como ocurre con Dios. Tal vez esa fuerza tenga muchos nombres, o ninguno. Tal vez solo se deja sentir cuando estamos en silencio y nos escuchamos de verdad.
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 [](https://pixabay.com/es/illustrations/ni%C3%B1o-hijab-musulm%C3%A1n-islam-mezquita-8297551/) Since I can remember, I've always felt there's something greater. But it's not about a specific figure, nor about following a religion per se. It's an energy, a force that I can't see, but I know it's there... and it's within me too. For me, faith isn't about believing in an external force that comes to save me. Rather, it's that inner light, that guidance that brings out the best in me and projects it outward. When I connect with emotions like kindness, compassion, gratitude, or hope, I feel those sensations blend with something larger, as if they form a current of energy that expands and ends up helping me, even without me realizing it. I remember when I was a child, they wanted to baptize both my brother and me, but neither of us wanted to. We didn't feel it was right for us. My aunt, who is very religious, saw it as something strange, almost as if not being baptized was dangerous. There was even a time she took me to church several times, specifically to the Catholic church. I know many people find comfort in that space, and I deeply respect that, but for me, it was the opposite: I felt uncomfortable. The energy of the place didn't sit well with me, and religious figures scared me a lot. I was scared to be there. As a child, even though I didn't understand many things, I was clear that it wasn't my path. And that doesn't mean I didn't believe in something. At that time, I believed in God, but in my own way. Over time, that idea also changed. Today, I don't believe in a God as any religion presents it. But I do believe in energy. In that force born from good emotions, noble thoughts, and somehow transforms into something that accompanies us. Sometimes I think humans have the power to materialize both good and bad. There are people who say they have seen demons, and I believe that has to do with all the anger, envy, and hatred that sometimes accumulates. That energy can also take form. That's why I believe that if we nurture kindness, we can also make that manifest in some way. Many difficult things have happened in my life. I'm not sure if I could recount a specific experience, but I feel that if I've survived so much darkness, it's been thanks to that strength, that way of seeing the world that sustains me. I don't call it "faith" like others do, but maybe it is. My way of connecting with the invisible isn't through prayers or rituals, but through consciousness. It's when I feel something moves me, when I see an injustice and think differently from the majority, when I'm not selfish even when I have reasons to be. It's like an emotional and spiritual intelligence that allows me to see beyond, and that makes me feel connected to something greater, even if I can't fully explain it. To those who feel something similar but don't fit into any religion, I can only say: believe in yourselves. Don't think there's only one way to connect with the invisible. As Carl Jung said, "Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens." Our spirituality can arise from within and doesn't need labels. That's what sustains me. And that's enough for me. Though I admit I'm also not closed to the possibility that there might be something more, something we don't fully understand... like with God. Perhaps that force has many names, or none. Perhaps it's only felt when we're silent and truly listen to ourselves.
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 [](https://pixabay.com/es/illustrations/ni%C3%B1o-hijab-musulm%C3%A1n-islam-mezquita-8297551/) Since I can remember, I've always felt there's something greater. But it's not about a specific figure, nor about following a religion per se. It's an energy, a force that I can't see, but I know it's there... and it's within me too. For me, faith isn't about believing in an external force that comes to save me. Rather, it's that inner light, that guidance that brings out the best in me and projects it outward. When I connect with emotions like kindness, compassion, gratitude, or hope, I feel those sensations blend with something larger, as if they form a current of energy that expands and ends up helping me, even without me realizing it. I remember when I was a child, they wanted to baptize both my brother and me, but neither of us wanted to. We didn't feel it was right for us. My aunt, who is very religious, saw it as something strange, almost as if not being baptized was dangerous. There was even a time she took me to church several times, specifically to the Catholic church. I know many people find comfort in that space, and I deeply respect that, but for me, it was the opposite: I felt uncomfortable. The energy of the place didn't sit well with me, and religious figures scared me a lot. I was scared to be there. As a child, even though I didn't understand many things, I was clear that it wasn't my path. And that doesn't mean I didn't believe in something. At that time, I believed in God, but in my own way. Over time, that idea also changed. Today, I don't believe in a God as any religion presents it. But I do believe in energy. In that force born from good emotions, noble thoughts, and somehow transforms into something that accompanies us. Sometimes I think humans have the power to materialize both good and bad. There are people who say they have seen demons, and I believe that has to do with all the anger, envy, and hatred that sometimes accumulates. That energy can also take form. That's why I believe that if we nurture kindness, we can also make that manifest in some way. Many difficult things have happened in my life. I'm not sure if I could recount a specific experience, but I feel that if I've survived so much darkness, it's been thanks to that strength, that way of seeing the world that sustains me. I don't call it "faith" like others do, but maybe it is. My way of connecting with the invisible isn't through prayers or rituals, but through consciousness. It's when I feel something moves me, when I see an injustice and think differently from the majority, when I'm not selfish even when I have reasons to be. It's like an emotional and spiritual intelligence that allows me to see beyond, and that makes me feel connected to something greater, even if I can't fully explain it. To those who feel something similar but don't fit into any religion, I can only say: believe in yourselves. Don't think there's only one way to connect with the invisible. As Carl Jung said, "Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens." Our spirituality can arise from within and doesn't need labels. That's what sustains me. And that's enough for me. Though I admit I'm also not closed to the possibility that there might be something more, something we don't fully understand... like with God. Perhaps that force has many names, or none. Perhaps it's only felt when we're silent and truly listen to ourselves.
