He Loves Me

Sometimes when I'm set to pray I find my thoughts lingering almost everywhere, worried about so many things and when I don't concentrate for long then next is to be carried away by sleep and I love to share what I did to redeem that situation. Not only did I go for an hour in prayer I went on for almost 3 hours.  I begin my day by 1 am devoting an hour to worship and praise before setting the mood for prayers and most times I go down for 2 hours then one hour before I begin to study. Before I slept, I watched my favourite YouTube video by Winning and explained how she gathered her thoughts and set her minds in prayer. I was like okay, since sometimes I get a bit distracted, let me try out her style and see how it works for me. I didn't have a playlists of gospel songs on Spotify so I just randomly browse and I got a lot what I did was to begin playing and it moved from the ones I appreciate to the once I appreciate least but I stumbled onto one particular song which I have to leave on repeat because I couldn't get enough of it. The title of the song “He loves me” by Chibi K, this song felt like it was what I needed at that moment. The moment of worries, shallowness and emptiness. I have someone I can talk to over my problem. It doesn't matter how dark and judgemental people look at you he is saying today he still loves you and is willing to accept you. God is going to accept no matter how dark and filter my sins are. The song was like therapy knowing I have someone who still loves me who I could share all my worries with and gives me hope each time and an assurance everything is going to be alright. I have to put this song on repeat over and over again. It was a reminder even if things get so dark I'm not alone, I'm walking with Jesus Christ. It felt like I was back again, having someone by my side who is always whispering to me everything is going to be alright if I only trust in him in both bad times and good times reminding me he still loves me no matter what and that I'm not alone is enough to survive even in the toughest times of life. The next day I played this song throughout my chores even as I head out to work it still played throughout till I got to my destination. It was the only thing I wanted to hear at that moment. God's love supersedes human love and even if human love fails at some point God's love is everlasting and he keeps loving me till my last. So yeah, I'm not alone because I have someone who's love suppresses every disappointment, failures and yeah I'm embraced in his love and I want to know him more and more. I want to be deeper and deeper in his love for me.