Sometimes you learn from your mistakes. What have I learned from this particular mistake? That, maybe, just maybe pastels are not my medium.. or if I wanted it to be then I'd need a whole lot more paractice with them. I watch people on Youtube drawing with pastels with ease and precision, but for whatever reason my pastels seem to be acting completely differently. They are blotchy, they do not blend as easily as shown, the lift off where you want to place them down and all in all, just makes a whole lot of mess.
And the constant white showing through! Damn!
Maybe I should have left it at this stage, but for whatever reason I did not like the background being just one flat colour like that.
So I continued to torture it. Trying to add gradient to the background only to end up with an uneaven mess.
And still, with so many layering attempts, the colour would not remain even, where you need more of it, you can't apply it, because it lifts even more of it off.. the struggle is real..
By this point I was already too frustrated with this piece and though there was nothing more to lose, so I needlessly went in with scratched outlines, that honeslty only made it worse readability wise.. but this is the point where I have to give up and admit a failure -
It did not work out. I have to face the music. And it's fine, because the frustration with the end result is only a fuel to motivate me to once make something I myself can feel proud of and honestly admit that I like it. But this one ain't it. And that's ok.
Feel free to leave constructive criticism, should you have any pastel expereience and know exactly what I did wrong here, I'm more than willing to learn and grow..
~Josie~