If I was dead right now and had the chance to look back on my life, one of the biggest things I would regret not doing is embracing new experiences and meeting people.
I’ve always been more of an indoor person. It’s not like I completely lock myself in the house — I do go outside, but it’s usually for a purpose. Maybe I’m sent on an errand, going to the market, or just taking a short walk to observe nature. Those are the moments when I step out. But going out for the sake of enjoying myself or attending social events? That’s something I rarely do.
The thing is, I actually love dancing. I enjoy music, and the idea of being in a lively place, moving with the rhythm, really appeals to me. I’ve also always admired people who go to concerts, enjoy the atmosphere, and make unforgettable memories. But sadly, I’ve never been to one. Not once.
Also, i would like to go on vacation and visit different countries but then i haven't had that chance. I have always spent my time in my country.
So if I was dead, I know I would regret never giving myself the chance to experience that kind of excitement and energy — to just let go and enjoy the moment.
Another thing I would regret is not improving my social skills enough while I was alive. The truth is, I’m not very good at socialising. I find it hard to make friends, and I don’t normally speak unless someone talks to me first. That can be a problem, especially in situations where building connections could open doors or make life more enjoyable. I know that socialising is a skill, and just like any other skill, it needs practice. But for a long time, I didn’t put in that effort.
Let’s just say I’ve always had challenges when it comes to forming and maintaining relationships. I’m the type who can be friendly in the moment, but if we don’t see each other again soon, the connection fades away. I’ve missed opportunities to build friendships simply because I didn’t speak up, didn’t ask questions, or didn’t make an effort to keep in touch.
Now, being in school has helped me a bit. I’m in an environment where I just have to bond with people, work on group projects, and interact. Slowly, I’ve been trying to become better at it. I’ve started having more conversations and even making friends here and there. But once I’m at home, it’s usually a different story. I go back to my comfort zone, where I barely interact with anyone outside my family, and my social life almost disappears.
If I died now, I would regret not pushing myself out of that comfort zone more often. Life isn’t only about working hard, studying, or staying in our safe little spaces. It’s also about laughing with people, creating memories, and living in the moment. And I think I would regret not having enough of those moments — the ones that make life feel full and beautiful.
Thanks for reading.