Today the red moon rose in the sky. Although I didn't see the red moon, I thought I would go to the roof but for some unknown reason I didn't want to go. For some unknown reason I was crying intensely, since last night. This has happened to me before, but this time I felt so helpless along with the intense crying. It would have been nice to be able to sit and pass the day, but that's not the case anymore, I'm not old enough to rest now.I always feel like time is running away from me. So I didn't find the time to go up to the roof and look at the moon!
When I feel extremely helpless, I want to be close to my loved ones, but when I feel helpless, I realize that my loved ones don't love me back enough ! I want to hug them, cry a little, lighten my mind a little, but nothing is possible.
The weight of the little red and blue domestic life of ours which is mine world I would lost keeps growing on my head. I can't breathe thinking about one more broken family ! I can't hold you, who is an arm's length away from me.My domestic life is up for auction, in the end I become dead and you become someone else's!
My mental illness, for unknown reasons, the experts told me to come to my loved one & it's the best medicine for me . You are leaving me from your hands, and I am slowly dying!I don't have the strength to regret not seeing the red moon due to a severe mental illness, so I don't have the strength to lament when I see the moon every day in the evening......