When everyone dares not to take the responsibility out of their ability, I was there to accept the challenge, thinking I could with hard work and dedication, but I was completely wrong and got to face the backlash pretty badly, and I am still facing it.
Going against the tide has been a pretty famous quote; it's valid only if you are sure and confident about the decision. For general thumb rules, you shouldn't doubt the mass decision unless you are super confident. I was like that, was super confident with my decision, went against the family, rejected their suggestions even though they had seen the world more than me, but as a Gen Z, we listen to none, good at playing with fire. So I had chosen to go wild with my decision, thinking, “I will face whatever comes.” Now things are much more horrible to face than I had anticipated.
So, it sparked two years back, I was on my own, stepped into something that should be done with hundreds of thoughts, with the help of family, and all. I was wild enough to do it all alone, without anyone. That's what the mistake is: I was too unfamiliar with how real life is. So yeah, I wish I hadn't gone against my family values and ethics, had not taken a few decisions on my own, carried away by emotion and lack of vision, I would have been in a better situation mentally, physically, and economically as well.
"ᵂᵒʳᵈˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵖⁱᶜˢ ᵃʳᵉ ᵐⁱⁿᵉ, ᵘⁿˡᵉˢˢ ᴵ ˢʰᵒᵘᵗᵒᵘᵗ ʷʰᵉʳᵉ ᵗʰᵉʸ ᶜᵃᵐᵉ ᶠʳᵒᵐ!"
Things kept going, the curve declining little by little. I, who used to wake up at 11 in the morning, now wake up at 7 am. I never boarded local transportation. Now it's my daily medium, who was always towards freedom, now stuck in a corporate environment, where none ever dared to point fingers at me. Now I hear people saying so many things. I can feel my blood boiling, ready to burst out, but still, the skin is too fat and cold to absorb now, what to do? I got helpless with so much stuff that was miscalculated due to one decision.
If that hadn't happened, I might have still lived comfortably, walked with my dignity and respect, not accountable to anyone, not to worry about so many things throughout the whole month, nor would I have listened to anyone's harsh talk. I would have been the me who was fearless, a man of words, self-sufficient, and stable mentally, physically, and economically.
So yeah, one decision going against your family can leave you in such deep shits that it would be like a trauma for you, affecting your life from top to bottom, making things upside down.
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