It's me, Nacht! I'm the problem, it's me! and I'm new here!

Hello everyone! My name is Ronnie, but you can call me **Nacht**. I got my username from my favorite anime series, "Black Clovers". I'm 25 and from the Philippines. Besides watching anime, I enjoy working out whenever I have free time, playing guitar, and listening to many types of music. I enjoyed listening to Taylor Swift, Panic! at the Disco, Paramore, My Chemical Romance, and Twenty One Pilots I have a passion that I enjoy doing whenever I feel a certain way in life, such as when I'm pleased, sad, angry, bored, etc. I always add in the notes how that feeling would be expressed in a poem. I got a lot of these throughout the years. So maybe I can share them here rather than keeping them hidden on the notes app. I love to be alone with nature, I really love to hike and go to the different beaches in the Philippines, especially during summer. I love watching sunsets, and I've recently realized that I already collected a lot of sunset pictures since I always capture sunsets wherever I go. Maybe I became like this because I had a magnificent sunset dream, and it was so lovely that when I awoke, I sat on my bed, closed my eyes, and kept playing the scenes over and over in my thoughts. Because I frequently forget my dreams, I do that in order to recall them. I opened my eyes when I was certain I wouldn't forget it and grinned to myself, realizing the dream had become a memory. I'm an introvert with very few friends, I'm not sure whether it's just me, but most days I feel the most at peace and free when I'm alone. I find it addictive to be alone and unpopular. Because the world just seems a lot wider and quieter to me when I'm alone. It spins so slowly that, for once, I feel like I can keep up with it. I can close my eyes and become the person my life has prevented me from becoming, even for a brief period of time, and I can think of my dreams without boundaries or the weight of expectations pressing down on me. There are days when you simply need solitude and silence in order for you to make sense of things. I want you to know that just because you find yourself slipping away from others doesn't make you nasty or cruel. You're a human, therefore having a meltdown is acceptable, and you don't have to justify why you're putting your soul's needs first to anyone. Nice to meet you all! Thank you for reading and hope to connect with you!! Thanks, @cthings for introducing this platform to me!! 😊