Burning out a little bit at the moment with so many things going on. So tired from weeks upon weeks of running around and trying to figure things out. Thinking one problem has been solved when another one springs up. Chaos! The constant motion of trying to get something going only for those hurdles to appear has been incredibly frustrating, but there's not much more that I can do besides let each day come and try to address those problems one at a time. Today, a run outside during a call to the bank followed by a visit to an advertising agency regarding the printing of some business cards I need. So many hands shaking. So many offices and waiting rooms. I miss the days where I could just carelessly roam the streets with the camera and not much else would be on my mind. Though I'm excited for once all of this is finally dealt with and I can move forward.
I barely even feel like I have the attention for Hive at the moment. Barely capable of stringing together a post and having the time to go through some of the images I've taken. Hardly knowing what to say. I've seen others going through some similar things lately where life just takes over and all else gets thrown aside. More posts on how people are feeling a bit tired rather than them showing their usual joyful side and little adventures. I try to avoid writing posts like that and still trying to find some connection to the images I post. These taken over a day in which I assumed the banking situation was finally dealt with and I could move on to the next obligation. Trying to find that moment of peace and optimism going forward into the assumed creativity era. Hoping bureaucracy and paperwork would stay away for at least a few weeks to a few months.
I haven't had as much time with the camera as I'd have liked to lately, though I still try to bring it along with me everywhere even if I end up taking one or two images. I do think I might need to take a little break from things soon to focus on everything going on, rather than trying to stretch myself across numerous interests. Getting a bit more sleep and trying to find a more balanced, healthier schedule that doesn't make me feel like I don't have enough time in the day to do it all. At the moment the only photography I do is during a quick commute to and from somewhere, a quick snap of something along the way rather than having true intent to get out and take some pictures and find something to capture. I like the run-and-gun style of things in general, but it's definitely a bit harder to do when you're stuck on the same route each day. Anyway, we shall see how things pan out over the next week. Hopefully more balance, hopefully some obligations finally ticked off and put behind.