Saludos amigos de la #Greenzone.
Por invitación de mi amiga @iriswrite vengo a tratar de abrir esos recovecos que a veces tenemos cerrados hasta para nosotros mismos.
El pretexto es que tratemos las cosas que nos cuesta dejar atrás o, para ser precisa en mi caso, con lo que no estoy conforme de mí misma y que intento seguir superando.
Hay quienes dicen que la incertidumbre es la única certeza. Hasta se aventuran a definir que la vida es eso, porque nadie sabe a ciencia cierta lo que pasará mañana o lo que nos tiene guardado el Universo.
Así, a lo grande, estoy absolutamente de acuerdo, y quién se atrevería ir en contra de verdad. Cada día nos convencemos de que es así. Pero en los asuntos más personales, a pequeña escala me gusta prever, estar segura.
Pues a mí, amigos, me cuesta lidiar con la idea de no planificar los acontecimientos, en ocasiones hasta al detalle. Yo bromeo diciendo que mi profesión secreta es llevar agendas, proyectar, y que me he contentado con la mía nada más.
Debo dejar claro que no me gusta controlar a las personas o que siempre se haga mi voluntad. No es eso. Esto de garantizar el control de las situaciones se ajusta a mí, a mis acciones y, obvio, a veces repercute en otras personas.
Por ejemplo, desde jovencita cuando se pensaba en determinada actividad, allá iba yo con los detalles de en qué iríamos, en qué regresaríamos, a qué hora, con quién, por cuánto tiempo.
Es fácil percatarse de que no he sido dada a las aventuras y que he deseado tener un poco de ese espíritu que no teme al azar. Pues ya ven, de aquí se deduce que tampoco me gustan mucho las sorpresas.
También se puede advertir que me gusta planificar y organizar, aunque nunca lo he llevado a lo patológico, al exceso. Y, con la edad he aprendido a ser flexible. A dejar ser. Que las cosas ocurran, fluyan.
En la juventud tendía a sobrepensar algunos hechos. Quizás si hubiera ido a alguna terapia habría encontrado un entendimiento profesional para disfrutar más los momentos imprevistos, una comprensión que hasta cierto punto ha llegado con la madurez.
Debo reconocer que este rasgo no ha sido invalidante para mí y esa propia carencia me ha hecho estar cerca de personas, no temerarias en su andar cotidiano, y sí un poco más improvisadoras que yo.
Es decir, esta característica no se ha convertido en un miedo a lo desconocido, ni un sufrimiento. Poco a poco aprendí que no se puede controlar todo, ni siquiera lo que hacemos nosotros mismos ante ciertas eventualidades.
Cuando mis hijas eran pequeñas, son dos con un año de diferencia, traté de no ser sobreprotectora, aunque sí cuidadosa. Leí mucho sobre el mejor modo de dotarlas de independencia de acuerdo con cada edad.
A medida que crecían interactuaban con niños, se iban soltando en las travesuras y ninguna de las dos tiene este rasgo mío.
Y sí, al final se siente que la aventura y el fluir son ingredientes que aportan a nuestras vidas. Como ven entre mis amigas de todos los tiempos está @iriswrite, vio nacer a mis hijas, las cuidó y mimó. Ella sabe que no fingiría lo que no soy.
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The need to let flow/ Initiative XII
Greetings friends of the #Greenzone.
By invitation from my friend @iriswrite I come to try to open those nooks that we sometimes keep closed even to ourselves. The pretext is that we address the things we find hard to leave behind or,to be precise in my case, what I am not satisfied with about myself and that I try to keep overcoming.
Some say that uncertainty is the only certainty. Some even venture to define life as just that, because nobody knows for sure what will happen tomorrow or what the Universe has in store for us. So,on that grand scale, I absolutely agree, and who would truly dare to disagree. Every day we become more convinced that it is so. But in more personal matters, on a small scale, I like to foresee, to be sure.
Well, my friends, I find it hard to deal with the idea of not planning events, sometimes down to the last detail. I joke that my secret profession is keeping agendas, projecting, and that I have contented myself with just my own. I must make it clear that I do not like to control people or for my will to always be done.It's not that. This need to guarantee control of situations applies to myself, to my actions, and, obviously, sometimes it affects other people.
For example, since I was very young, when a certain activity was being considered, there I went with the details of what we would wear, what we would come back in, at what time, with whom, for how long. It's easy to see that I have not been given to adventures and that I have wished to have a bit of that spirit which does not fear chance.Well, as you can see, it also follows that I don't really like surprises much either. It can also be noted that I like to plan and organize,although I have never taken it to the pathological, to excess. And, with age, I have learned to be flexible. To let be. To let things happen, to flow.
In my youth, I tended to overthink certain events. Perhaps if I had gone to therapy I would have found professional understanding to enjoy unforeseen moments more, an understanding that has come to a certain extent with maturity. I must recognize that this trait has not been disabling for me and that this very lack has made me be close to people who are not reckless in their daily walk,but a bit more improvisational than me.
That is to say, this characteristic has not become a fear of the unknown, nor a suffering. Little by little I learned that you cannot control everything, not even what we ourselves do in the face of certain eventualities. When my daughters were little,there are two of them with a year's age difference, I tried not to be overprotective, although I was careful. I read a lot about the best way to provide them with independence according to each age.
As they grew, they interacted with children their own age, they became more loose with mischief, and neither of them has this trait of mine. And yes,in the end, one feels that adventure and flow are ingredients that contribute to our lives. And as you can see, among my friends of all times is @iriswrite, she saw my daughters being born, cared for and pampered them, and to her, I cannot lie.
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