The Person I Was, The Person I Became

Life is a lifelong process of growth. Anyone who doesn’t want to grow in their life is dead, but just not buried. Everyone of us on the surface of the earth aims to grow in every aspect of their lives, be it’s academically, financially and many more. At my age, I seek to think that I just slept as a 10 year old and woke up as a twenty something year old lady cos I can’t believe is me today.  Looking back to 15 years ago, I was that kid that dared to do anything and everything. I had wings which I wanted to fly with because I was given large skies to spread my wings. Unlike many others, I didn’t grow up in a home where I was forced to hold back who I really was or had to put my goals on a hold. I was pushed to do more and sim high because I was more than capable. With this upbringing, before I hit primary 6 , I was already doing great thing, that’s to the guidance of my parents and loved ones. But as time went on, I started to grow up and have new experience in life. I wouldn’t say my time in senior high school was the best, it wasn’t and in a way, I will blame myself. But thanks to my support system, I was back on my feet and on the right track before things got out of hand. I guess this was a major part of my growth journey because most of my experiences in that moment shaped be to become who I am today.  If my past self saw me today, they would be more than proud for how far I’ve come because when we speak of growth, I’ve actually grown immensely in all aspects of my life. First, I’ve learnt and grown to be more discipline that I was years back. Gone were the days when I didn’t really take some major things in my life very seriously, now I’m very much eager to reach higher heights with every opportunity. Procrastination was my second name some years back but today, it’s non existent in my dictionary because being a procrastinator and also indiscipline I me setting myself up for failure. I don’t know for others, but I had to learn the ways of life at a very tender age. By primary school, I knew how to save, take care of myself, know my way around things while also looking out for my younger sibling. If there’s one major thing that I’ve also had to learn, it’s to take care of myself while I’m also take care of others and also to live life and stop being too self conscious.  I’d say my life didn’t just change at one point. The changes in my life so far have been gradual and intentional towards the person that I am today. I don’t believe I would be where I am today if I didn’t set goals, work on myself and push myself very hard to do better. For me, giving up isn’t an option and so the only way is to keep going forward because I believe that once there is life, there is hope. - - - all images belong to me. - - -