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The truth about me:
I came to the world like everyone else, yet I felt imperfect, insecure, and not enough.
Every time, I felt like I was only a choice that could be replaced.
I listened to the lies of the naysayers.
I listened to the other voice. I cried over little things, said sorry over things that do not matter. I tried to be humble when I needed to be proud.
Hmmm! Always waking up like a man with no plans, behaving like a guy with no future ambition, while allowing talents to drift away like a painted river.
Getting hurt over things that do not matter, with flashbacks like a movie rewind.
This was me.
“Had I known, had I known…”—feelings and thoughts of the past when I could bury the past.
I carried the past to my present, and I began to nurture the past.
I was looking for the Messiah when the keys were in my hands.
Yoruba says, “owó là ń fín’ra ẹ̀ṣẹ̀ ṣe,” yet I was not taking a move concerning the future. I watched my past like a movie rewind.
This is who I was. I used to hate myself, hurt myself, and think that I wasn't destined to be someone or somebody important. But all that is gone now.
This changed when I forgave myself of my wrongs, and I believe you can too. Tell yourself that you are sorry and proceed from there.
This once affected my performance, and I used to say sorry to everyone—not until someone told me these words: “You and I made this mistake, so why are you saying sorry? In fact, this was all my fault, yet you apologize. You are having this self-discovery syndrome, which tells me that you are brooding on the things of old.”
I have been there, and I want you to know that you are one of a kind and can't be replaced...
Obesity isn't a reason why you should lose yourself. Don't rant, don't panic; just accept it. Dear, it is a reality that I know you can overcome. Obesity might be threatening, but if you love yourself the way you are, then you can fight it through.
Your heart talks about you, not your physique. Your mind should not be full of doubt during the process. If you believe that you can do it, then be it.
Do what winners do: begin the process and do not procrastinate. Obesity isn't a reason for you to kill yourself.
My cousin didn't kill herself because she was obese; she watched her weight. She had a plan and went to the gym to burn some calories. She is a really beautiful lady now. Never ever think that the media definition of beauty is slim and light skin. Also, for people who are anorexic, get yourself out of the loop of your imagination and focus on your future.
You are loved the way you are.
Pamilerin speaks.
