I was going to write on the HL contest topic that has to do with ghosting someone but when I gave the topic a thought, I realized that I actually happen to be one of those people who rarely ghost anyone, probably because I don't have a lot of people in my life to begin with.
But you see, in as much as I don't have a lot of friends, there is something I do to the few friends that I have that I know isn't a good thing, and maybe, this could be considered as a form of ghosting too (correct me if I'm wrong).
But you see, when I gained admission into the university, I learnt something new about myself, something I didn't quite know at the time because this was the first time I was moving over to a different state to stay for a long period of time.
I got to realize that in as much as I wouldn't ghost the people around me, I can't really say the same for those who aren't around me. If you're confused about what I just said, what I'm trying to say is that I have this habit of not keeping in contact with friends who aren't physically in my life.
I remember some time two years ago, I had made a friend on Facebook and this lady happened to be a student of my school. We met a couple of times in school and I remember during one of our conversations, I had mentioned this same thing to her, telling her that while I could be a great friend when I'm physically in your life, it is usually the opposite the moment we find ourselves in a situation where we can no longer see each other due to distance.
At the time, she didn't understand how serious I was with those words that I had said until last year when she graduated from school and had to move back to her parent's house, which was located in an entirely different state from where our school was.
I didn't talk to her for months, and this wasn't because I didn't want to talk to her, but because I wasn't even remembering her. But then there were a few times when she did cross my mind and I tried to say hi, but the connection just wasn't there any more and I know for a fact that it was because deep down in my heart, I knew they were far away and probably gone from my life, which to be honest isn't entirely true.
This is something I've been struggling with for long now, and what's even sad is that I'm not bothered enough to even want to change. I just feel that is me, and maybe I'm not cut out for long distance friendships.