NOT YET THE BEST BUT I'M BETTER

When I was thinking on this question "Who are you?" My memory took me on a journey to fifteen years back in my life. I could still remember the small me with naive eyes, although I was very brilliant with big dreams but timid and quiet. I am the last born of a family of five and the only girl child so I grew up with so much pampering and love. That was the me living without responsibilities, bills and disappointments. I was living in a world where there was no boundaries without the thought of tomorrow.  My childhood was also filled with moments of joy, I remember when I usually run around bare footed inside rain, the day of engaging in games of mummy and daddy, building castles with sand and making hairs for Barbie toys, I remember the days of buying puff puff every evening with the remaining ten nairas I always remain from my food allowance. I was only a girl back then having simple dreams and all I wanted was to pass my exams in order to make my parents proud and one day I would become a banker like I promised myself the first day I entered a bank😂 However, there is a proverbs that says "if dreams were horses even beggars will ride". The first turning point of my life was when my dad died after suffering from a chronic kidney disease. His death distabilized every member of my family, it was really a bad season for us and I was just eight, my first brother was just about to write his final WASSCE 🥲 but God came through for us despite the ups and downs, we were able to move forward with my mum striving so hard to make the best out of our lives and sponsor our education. I also remember the time I failed my final WASSCE examination, not because I was dull nor was I playful but it just happened so I had to write the exam again the following year by enrolling for SS 3 again. I had to study like I had never done before and I made sure I was responsible for my life because I was my mother's hope too and I can't let her down and I also realized that failure was an effective instructor that made me tough and persistent in ways that no success would have. Glory to God, I gained admission into the university and I made sure I didn't stay in school to play my time away. I was focused, persistent and hardworking in my studies because I know the road to success isn't a bed of roses.  All these experiences of life have transformed me into a more conscious and focused lady. I look at myself in the mirror today and I see a lady who was conditioned by both the happiness and sorrows, failures and successes but something is so certain I always overcome victoriously. The younger me will be proud of who I have become today even while I'm still striving for a better me, I know with God on my side the sky is my starting point. This is not yet who I ought to be but I'm grateful for who I have become while I anticipate becoming the best version of myself. Thank you so much for staying this far, hope you had a good read with me, see you again next time 🤗