Dream vs. Reality: I Thought a Wallet That Never Ran Out of Money Was Possible, But How Wrong I Was!

 As a kid with a wide imagination, I really imagined a lot of things back then, from the romance and action genres to comedy and drama. I also love to imagine myself winning in a lottery, you know, those impossible scenarios, haha. But my favorite genre is romance, of course, like those *sweet romance stories with a handsome and rich man who falls in love with a poor girl* trope—something like that. It's really just fun to imagine these kinds of things. Another favorite of mine was imagining myself working my way up the ladder of success. Getting a nice job, my dream house, and a wallet that never runs out. Having this kind of imagination that I thought was closer to reality helps me a lot during tough times back then.  Seriously, my imagination till now is still as wide as I was as a kid. Until now, I still imagine myself winning in a lottery and living the life I wished I had before. It's fun having an imagination like this, it helps me cope with whatever bad situation I am in. And with my imagination as a kid, I thought I would be able to make even one dream come true today. Although I am living comfortably right now and I can eat three meals a day, still, it's far from what I pictured myself as an adult when I was just a kid. And seriously, I don't really need much riches, all I want is a happy home, a wallet that never runs out of money, and a life where I don't have to think about where to get cash to buy basic necessities. I still get a headache today whenever I think about this. Like the other day, I had already used up all of my sanitary pads, and I needed to buy them now. But then, I have to set them aside for now because I still have things I have to get first, I have to prioritize, in other words.  Back when I was a kid, I thought if I became an adult, I could get all that I wanted easily, but it didn't mean that I want all this alcohol, not this, (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠). As a shy person, it's actually really hard. Although I tried, but only once. And I never tried again. And now I am happily stuck at home with my oldies. I am not complaining, though. As a shy person that easily gets intimidated with everything, this is a good thing for me. But because I don't have a regular job, I can't just buy what I want. It's always needs versus needs. But if I will compare my life today and back in 2015 to 2018, my life today is much easier. Back then I was really just a palamunin at home, haha. It only changed in 2019 when I discovered this crypto blogging site called read.cash. That site really helps me a lot during the pandemic too. I was able to save up too, and now I have a small savings. Then there's Hive, which has been helping me a lot until now. Thanks to that, I can help at home using half of my rewards here. I can say I have "ambag" now, or contribution at home. Lol  Even though my financial status right now is far from what I dreamed of, I am still happy and contented. But if I'm given a chance, of course, I will try to change that. But for now, I am happy with how things are right now. I'm not living the best of the bestest life, but I'm living happily, and that's just alright, no? (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) --