Love

Such an easy word to say Such a gentle cares on cruel days Love takes on any form Family, friends, passion, fire, lust Rejection, isolation... Depression But not the kind that makes you line your wrists or necklace a noose But depression like a hole inside, a void, sucking away all the happiness.

You see Love isn't just the butterflies in your belly Love isn't just bright colorful days Love is insecurities, frustrations, and all the wonderful and ugly things

Love can do wonders Love can make rainy days a perfect day to cuddle Love can make songs a happy hum Love can make sunsets romantic

But the irony of it all? Love can make you grow sick of your favorite songs Love can make rainy days gloomy Love can make sunsets a lonely transition of what was a bright day into a hollow night sky

The stars dangle from above drooping What was once constellations, traced by familiar hands that fathom every curve of your smile are now a painful memory burned on the back of your mind 1,2,3 Counting stars after another Counting Counting nights you've cried to sleep Counting promises tucked away in your closet Counting all the why's and how's And none None of it would seem to matter NONE OF IT WOULD SEEM TO MATTER!

Even if you gave her your heart, your soul, your grace, your everything it wouldn't be enough! Not enough Not. Enough. No amount of tears would bring back the love that chose to leave, treading on curious steps Steps away from you Away from what was once happy days. You can never blame a wandering boat, wanting to go sailing

But i still wish I still wish that one day This sea of tears would draw in a sailor built to sail on stormy waters. One day Your ghost living inside my everyday will be an indifferent roomy An awkward gum from a pulled out tooth A centavo, untaken stairs No matter how your existence wouldn't seem to leave every fiber of my being One day The idea of you would no longer matter.

And on that day Someday I'll look straight through your eyes And be able to say that

I have finally found myself that I lost in you.

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