Actually doing the thing..

Greetings everyone, You might be wondering what this THING is that I'm doing?

Well It's none other than actually attempted to do collaborative streams!

A couple of days ago I loosely expressed interest on a post on bluesky of someone asking for vtubers who play GrimDawn. Having not seen a whole lot of GrimDawn streamers that are vtubers I chocked up the courage to reply stating my enjoyment of the game while not directly saying "HI HEY I'M VTUBER AND PLAY GAME".

Low and behold said person actually DMs me on bluesky asking about the possibility of doing a collab. SUCCESS! undirect luring of subject achieved! I reply stating my apprehension and interest, trying to give the whole picture of where I'm at with this.

I've always feared working with people. I still do! The weight of expectation and responsibility is amplified and extremely stress inducing for me, But they are understanding and reassuring which made me feel better, I also was consciously fighting the inner thoughts of bailing out.

Anyways we add enough other on discord and exchange more words and begin arranging a play session for the very next day, I misunderstand this as actually collaborating the very next day which felt way to soon but that was later cleared up as actually just have a game together and vibing to see if we mesh. After clearing up the misunderstanding the date is set..

That day was today, it just happened, I've just got off a 2 and a half hour session playing GrimDawn with someone I don't know at all and would normally avoid contact cause of my fear of people in general and social ineptitude.

But I got to say. It went very well, I was naturally nervous at first but as we got playing it just.. felt normal, like I'm playing with a mate I've known for years. Needless to say I think we meshed pretty well, I will say we didn't talk too much about random stuff and mostly bounced ideas about builds etc, which IMO is fine.

My streamer head was acutely aware of the dead silence which is terrible for streams but if we were streaming well.. we'd have each others communities to interact with so that silence very well may not even be a problem.

Over all I feel good about it.. and it also paves to way to actually going for some of the other collaborative offers out there. I'm not as afraid to say hey yes.. I would like to collaborate.

It's not crazy difficult to arrange times. It's OK if it doesn't work out. It's OK if you don't vibe.

It's always worth the time to find out if it can work.

I'm still not 100% comfortable but I can manage, I mean I brute force my way through most things with this anxiety and social issues. Little bits at a time!

So I'm very much looking forward to either going ahead with a streaming collab or even just playing more grimdawn cause frankly I enjoy the game very much and it's even more enjoyable multiplayer.

If anything I may at least have made a new friend.

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