At night, specifically in the middle of the night, even as dawn approaches and sometimes until the sun is already visible, I am still preoccupied with my thoughts, pondering matters that are sometimes trivial and sometimes complex. In my adult life, I find it difficult to achieve deep sleep, the kind that regenerates my cells. I only sleep to comply with my body, which is already exhausted from being active all day. I realise that this is not the right thing to do. My mind validates my thoughts that night is the best time to be active and daydream. I often agree with people who say that it is okay to sleep late as long as the quality of sleep is good, but I have never felt good quality sleep again. Thinking about things and daydreaming is indeed exciting for me, creating things until I forget the time. Sleep, yes, maybe I want to sleep, sleep deeply until I’m bored, but can I escape the reality of life by sleeping? The truth is, if I don’t sleep, reality itself will be worse than I imagined. My body feels weak and unenthusiastic, only my brain wants to keep taking the lead, even though other parts of the body also need attention, including the brain. Yes, this writing is not really meant to express something or tell a story, let alone present a theory. it's just that my brain wants to keep typing even though it's already too stupid, the typing keeps rolling, only with the aim of reaching the target number of words. What's the point of pursuing unimportant things? The important thing for me is that I'm typing, yes, typing without any clear purpose, I don't know what the goal is, what is clear is that I am creating this collage with my own enjoyment. I have insomnia, I want to sleep, but on the other hand, I also don't want to sleep. I want to stay awake when bursts of creativity explode in my head. I want to write down all the silly ideas that keep popping up one by one every time I see a word, an object, an event, a fleeting memory that appears in my head, words that come out of people's mouths, the digital world that never stops and the daily intake of rotten content. Yes, I love this world, a world that truly never sleeps.
Okay, I created this collage entirely using Paint.net, taking images from public domain site and using a free font called Boska.
Here are the steps I took, which I turned into a GIF :
