One of my biggest fears is not fulfilling my purpose. I often feel a sense of restlessness, like there’s something I’m supposed to do, something that will make an impact and bring me true satisfaction. I know I am meant for more, yet I sometimes find myself wondering if I’ll ever get there. Fear has a way of whispering that maybe I am not enough or that people will judge me if I try and fail. I’ve tried to overcome this fear in many ways like joining classes, reading books, listening to motivational talks, and surrounding myself with people who push me to grow. Still, that lingering doubt sometimes remains. But I keep reminding myself that purpose is not achieved in a day. It’s a journey. But still I wanted to do something.
Another fear that lives deeply in my heart is not being able to provide for my parents the way they truly deserve. My parents have sacrificed so much for me, especially my mother, whose strength and love have carried me through many hard moments. Right now, I still depend on them in some ways, and that alone makes me feel uneasy. I want to reach the point where I can take full responsibility, where I can say, “Don’t worry, I’ve got you now.” My greatest wish is to make enough to care for them and let them eat the fruit of their labour while they are still strong. Sometimes, the thought of losing them before I can do that frightens me deeply. It’s a fear that keeps me praying, working, and believing that I will get there soon.
My third fear is choosing wrong when it comes to marriage. My teenage and young adult years were filled with pain and lessons that shaped who I am today. Those experiences made me value peace more than anything. Now that I’m at the stage where marriage is near, my biggest prayer is to choose right, to have a peaceful home with a kind and loving partner. I don’t want to relive old pains; I want a future filled with joy, understanding, and genuine companionship. I fear making a mistake that could cost me my peace, but I’m learning to trust God’s timing and not rush the process.
Confidence, doesn’t mean I have no fear. It means I’m choosing to keep going despite my fears. Every day, I try to do one thing that moves me closer to my purpose, my dreams, and the peaceful life I desire. I may not have overcome all my fears yet, but I’m learning to live above them, with hope, courage, and faith leading the way. And I pray my fear turn to testimony soon.