How shall I be remembered? As a mother? As a wild woman? As a freedom fighter? As a lover of life? As a mushroom fanatic? As a dancer?
( Me putting myself out there.)
There are so many things I am passionate about, things that inspire me and motivate me. Things that really help to elevate me.
Just this weekend, I found the courage to join a group of amazing musicians on stage, where I both sang and played my bodhran alongside them. I felt quite intimidated at first, as I have heard them play a few times and I have always been blown away by their talent.
And yet, they were the ones encouraging me to come join them.
I have been tempted before, to join in with others when they were singing. But that little voice within would always talk me down. My insecurities preventing me from taking the leap.
But not today. Today I stepped up over my fear and shared my voice and my rhythm. It felt so good, so freeing. And on top of that, I got some really great feedback. With one lady asking me, if I performed anywhere else.
I know I'm not the best singer or the best bodhran player, I think what people enjoyed, was seeing someone get over one their fears and really loving it at the same time.
Life, gives us all of this opportunities and we have to be ready to take them. Because, " If not now, then when".
So I would like to be remembered as someone who wasn't afraid to try. Who wasn't afraid to search out the life, that I really wanted and explore the many different ways in which I could make it work.
I'm well aware, that the way I live is not for everyone. That it wouldn't be everyone's, cup of tea.
But I've lived long enough to know what I want and to go for it. Within reason that is. Life is meant to be explored, to be lived.
There are far too many distractions in the world at the moment. With most of our entertain, coming from screens. But these screens, make us more detached from what really matters and that's been fully present and doing the things that you enjoy and that empower you.
So to break it down even further, I wanted to be remembered as someone who was true to myself. Who followed my own path and finally got the courage to rock out on stage, lol.
