I had grand plans for this weekend. There were a few events happening and I wanted to attend at least two of them. At the Solstice, the energy is high and I like to celebrate with other people, to dance and sing. To come together with the wider community and celebrate our expressive selves, just like nature itself, is doing.
I just have to look around me, to see how growth within nature, has reached it's peak. The trees have full foliage, the flowers are blooming and there is an abundance of food in the garden. It's a very fertile time of the year. It's a time to come together ad celebrate what we have achieved, individually and collectively.
On Friday night, there was a birthday party for one of my friends, one that would go on, late into the night. I had wanted to attend, just for a few hours as my youngest daughter got her next belt for KickBoxing, early Saturday morning. As Friday drew nearer and we began to experience some very hot and humid weather, my enthusiasm began to dwindle.
Summers are usually dry here, not humid. But for the last week, it's like I have been living in a different Country. I found myself having to get used to working in this new climate. I usually work in the mornings only, then the middle of the day I am at home. But lately I have been feeling very drained, just wiped out after a few hours working outside.
It doesn't help that this change in weather, seems to be brought on by some crazy spraying in the sky. The Spanish government has been very open about their Weather modification, via spraying. Which on top of the heat, is draining. So come Friday evening, when I should have been getting myself ready to go out, I found myself lying in bed exhausted.
So that was an easy decision to stay at home and try and have an earlier night. Which has been difficult, as the nights haven't really been cooling down. But I fell asleep eventually and woke early, so that I could get myself and my girls ready to walk into town, so my youngest could attend her next Kickboxing Grading, which she done really well at.
( I loved that the final part of the grading, all of the kids had to meditate.)
After that, we went for a celebratory juice and tostada, by the time we had finished, we found ourselves walking home in the midday heat. Luckily, I had my spray bottle at hand to give us some relief. I do recommend using a spray bottle full of water, to help you manage the heat, if like us, you do not live with aircon.
Then later on I had another job to do, which saw me outside for a bit, in the heat. So by the time it came for me to attend my other planned event, this time a Dub event, I was feeling somewhat exhausted again. I could have pushed myself, made myself an energy drink with juice and Guarana. Which I have done before, but instead I chose to listen to my body.
I have really been trying to look after myself. To not push myself, and that really starts and ends with me listening to my body and respecting my own boundaries. The Solstice is a perfect time to look at what you wish to be doing, who you wish to become and self care is something I really struggle with. I know I have written about it a lot on here, more to remain myself than anything, but also to hopefully remain others to do so as well.
So although my intention was to be a social butterfly this weekend, I found myself staying at home, trying to keep cool, in this crazy humid summer. But really I made the decision to just go slow, to be more gentle with myself and I am rather happy that I did. I have another busy week of work lined up and I want nothing more than to start it, well rested.
Wishing everyone a wonderful Solstice.
